Boston Marathon Training

I ran twice this week. I ran a full mile on Tuesday, and then a whole mile and a half on Thursday. Tomorrow, Saturday, I plan to run another mile or so.

 

These are my first miles since December. But it’s been since mid-September and my injury since I’ve done big miles. And big miles to me these days mean anything over five. Whereas a year ago I was doing 20 on any given Saturday without a thought of it being a big deal.

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Now this mile hurts. Later in the afternoon on Tuesday I felt aches in my shins and the back of my thighs. My ankles felt weak. And it’s not like I’ve been sitting around binge watching Netflix and getting out of shape. (Okay, I have binge watched Netflix – OMG Breaking Bad and Better Call Saul and Friday Night Lights...). But I’ve been doing most of my binge watching while riding the bike and putting in about 150 miles a week to keep my cardio up. I also spend a good 30 minutes each day on core and strength to be ready to increase my running mileage. But running is different. And these short miles don’t feel natural.

 

After 24 years of running, I’m a beginner again.

 

And Boston Marathon is 8.5 weeks away. After returning to marathon training two years ago, I qualified for Boston….and now…I ran a mile on Tuesday.

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I know I can run that first mile of the race. And damn that last .2 is MINE…but the 25 in between. I’m not feeling sure.

 

And I go through my options..

  1. Skip it. Cry a lot about skipping Boston Marathon. How does one skip BOSTON??? But take another year or so to really get better. I mean I had a torn tendon and stress fracture…do I really need to do this. And then maybe I’ll qualify again in two years and THAT will be my chance to do Boston. But what if I’m never in Marathon shape again. What if my ankle and foot are done. If that’s the case…
  2. ..then I’m going to Boston this year. It might just be my slowest marathon ever. But even finishing in five and a half hours gives me a Boston finish and a medal. Screw it all. I’m going – come what may. Even if it means walking half of it.

I’m scared. No matter how determined I am and ready to embrace the suck I am…I still am scared to mess with an injury.

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So how’s that Boston Marathon Training going? Well I will run three miles this week. And maybe five next week..and seven the week after..and we will just see how things go. That’s where I am right now….scared, confused, mad, frustrated, hopeful, hungry, ready, yet no matter…

….I’m still a runner.

 

About Tracy


My name is Tracy Morrison and I live in sunny Minnesota. I'm neither British nor a nun - I'm just a Midwesterner with a headache. This is mainly a humor and lifestyle blog that documents the lighter side of parenting. I am an ex-corporate ladder climber turned freelance writer, social media manager, world traveler, and marathon runner. I would love for you to contact me at tracy@sellabitmum.com

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  1. says

    You are strong, inspiring, and *most definitely* still a runner. Sending all sorts of good vibes your way as you make your journey to Boston — on *your* terms.
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  2. Dad says

    You go with your heart and mind as you always do. Which one will win out who knows? I do know you will be ok, and you will make and complete any goal that makes you happy and satisfied. Do what you feel you need to do for you! Love You

  3. says

    Ok, I love your dad, or the guy going by Dad. That comment is everything.

    You, my dear, are a runner, but more than that you are a force. You make things happen, you construct love, nurture happy, and call yourself on anything that isn’t the best you can do.

    I hope you run, but no matter what, you will always be login forward motion, always.
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  4. says

    Love to you! I vote you go to Boston, running or not. take care of yourself, and take it one day at a time. Hooray for biking and yoga, they aren’t replacements, but they sure can be great!
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  5. says

    I’m so sorry you have had to go through this and are faced with the tough choice. I know you’ll do what is right for you. The good thing about running is that it is always here for us when we are ready no matter where we are at or how far we’ve come or fallen. Sending you good thoughts and a virtual hug. Yay for a mile 🙂
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  6. says

    A wonderful friend of mine once sent me this message:

    NEVER GIVE UP.

    The best part is you get to decide what not giving up looks like.

    You’re a champion. Every day. You’re already won.

    XO

  7. says

    You most definitely are still a runner, even if you have to start from the beginning again. I’ve been thinking about you a lot and was so excited to see a picture of your running. Injuries stink and that first mile after not running for a while? SO HARD. I hate that you have to go through this and sending so much love to you!!
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