This is just going to be quick post. It isn’t the post I was suppose to write that was sort of ‘due’ this week and has been weighing on me because it takes time and work to sit down and do those kind of posts. And frankly that is not what this week has been about.
This week has been about family and fun and big messes in the living room. This week has been about brushing doll hair, fashion shows and soggy cupcakes from the Easy Bake Oven. This week has been about full days in jammies and popcorn for dinner. Movies at 10am and not getting the vacuum out and watching the laundry pile up in the hallway. This week has been about letting it all just go and letting it all sink in. The important stuff. And while my waistline might be growing from the 50th cookie of the week, I feel lighter than I have in weeks. Months.
And I realize that if I sit down to write then I want to write about what I want to write about when it feels right to write about it.
Like now at nearly midnight after an evening with my bestest of friends drinking wine and watching a chick-flick.
Because there was this thing that happened yesterday that I don’t want to forget. Not that I would. But I still wanted to write it down.
I went out for a birthday dinner with my aunt and when I returned home Jed and the girls were watching a movie. I quietly placed myself in the other room and opened my computer to do some work while they all seemed cozy and happy. Not five minutes passed and Eloise came around the corner.
“Whatcha doing Mom?”
Oh just trying to catch-up on a few things as I’ve been off-line all week.
“Are you coming to watch the movie?”
I hadn’t planned on it. I’ve seen it before..why don’t you go back in there and maybe I’ll catch the end.
And then Eloise walked over and sat on my lap and hugged me. Eloise hasn’t sat on my lap in nearly two years and she is not my hugger. And she told me she missed me while I was at dinner and really wanted me to come in and just sit next to her for the movie.
So I closed up my computer and sat under the same blanket with her. Her panda-hat head on my shoulder, her hand on my leg and her body which is almost as long as mine squished next to me in a chair made for one.
And I thanked god for this week of chaos and freedom and lazy days and extra time with these kids because I was there that time when Eloise needed just to be next to me.
And I hope I can give her that always.