I’ll tell you what was weird. I dropped Astrid off for her first day of preschool this morning. We’ve both been waiting with reserved anticipation for this event. Astrid not sure what ‘preschool’ really meant..and me. Well me, I wasn’t sure what it meant to be completely alone.
Leaving her was one of those moments where you wonder how it will really go. Astrid hasn’t ever been ‘left’ by me. No sitter, no school, no class. Just with Dad. And that doesn’t really count as being left.
But Astrid walked into that school and found her basket “This one is mine mama because it has a big ‘A’ on it and Astrid starts with A!” She dropped her backpack and walked right into that room. Not even looking for my hand.
She decided to play with play-doh(because ahem. we don’t have it at home) and sat down at a spot. I knelt down beside her and said that I was going to leave and asked her for a kiss. She turned to me and gave me a quick kiss and told me that she’d see me later.
And that was that.
Confused and overwhelmed I walked out of the building donning my sunglasses before I reached the exit to hide a few tears.
Because there she goes. But I’ve been here before.
But I didn’t have much time to think about it as I had to make a call to the orthodontist to change a braces appointment for Eloise. I had to confirm lessons with our new piano teacher. Dance classes needed to be rescheduled. I had to pick-up shoes. Damn I forgot to buy tights for Astrid.
I ran to the bookstore because I wanted to grab some supplemental math materials for Esther(will she ever learn how to tell time?).
Esther wanted me to arrange a play-date with another friend and Eloise is begging for another sleep-over for this weekend.
I had a chat with one of the neighbor moms because our kids have been playing ‘The Hunger Games’ outside lately but thankfully since they are all girls and currently have no need to hurt their friends whether imaginary or not..no one dies in this game but they all want to be Rue.
We decide they can still play. Katniss is a great role model and Rue kind of rocks all of our worlds.
I also bought ‘To Kill A Mockingbird” for Eloise to read because I know she will love it. The girl can read a book in about two hours and is begging for more ideas.
Did I mention that I did grab a cup of coffee all by myself and it was strange not to do the juggling act of holding hot coffee while holding a hand across the street and getting a toddler into a car? I hadn’t tried that in awhile. It was nice not to drop my phone. Also, I had my phone to myself for a whole three hours.
I can do it. I can do this again. And do you know what’s weird? Absolutely nothing.
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