We stopped at McDonald’s on our drive last Thursday. An extraordinary treat for the girls. We feasted on a meal of chocolate shakes(Esther had strawberry) and fries because that’s the kind of meal that women like best.
The girls were all seated in a row like they always do. They mush together in a booth while I sit across feeling quite lonely but enjoying the view. I went to get 12 more cups of ketchup. Because hello ketchup. And when I came back I saw them all there sucking down their shakes. Their bodies touching on their sides.
I sat down across from them and really felt quite overwhelmed by the view and said “you know you all are so beautiful. All of you. Your hearts. Your minds. Your eyes. Your everything.”
Astrid said “No, I’m just adorable.”
Esther said “I know, everyone says so.”
Eloise said “There’s nothing beautiful about me.”
And I corrected her immediately because Eloise is so very beautiful. My heart broke that she thinks she is not. And then she said “well Esther is so much prettier than I am.” and I told her that I wasn’t really talking about physical beauty but since she brought it up I didn’t see how she thought anyone was prettier than she was.
And then Esther interrupted us to say “But I am prettier than Eloise, ask anyone” and Eloise said “she’s right, I totally agree with her.”
Truthfully I didn’t know whether to be angry at Eloise for being so negative about her looks or angry at Esther for being so boastful or really proud of Esther for loving herself so much because really what women say anything good about ourselves ever.
So I just kind of dropped the subject and ate a lot of fries. Because McDonald’s makes the best fries. No one can debate that.