I’m This Big

Astrid spends her days trying to be bigger. She reaches her arms to the sky and says “See how big I am today, Mama!” and I always agree that yes she must have been growing the whole time she was sleeping last night. It’s also a good way to get her to go to bed very, very early – ‘if you sleep now you will grow to be SOOO big.’ (This also works for long naps…take notes)

Her growth is marked by items she can now reach that she could not just weeks ago, being able to see over a retaining wall on our daily walk, and no longer receiving the typical head bonk as she speeds past the dining room table.

 

So as we celebrate Astrid’s ‘bigness’ it always catches me by surprise when she crawls onto my lap and softly says “I’m your baby today, Mommy” and “I’m really just so tiny – see I still fit in your lap perfect.”

And I kiss and hug her up until she slides down and away to show me something again that ‘she’s big at.’

 

Because when you’re 2 – being big is a very big deal.

Until you’re 9 and then you get to hear “you’re big enough to know better” and “you can reach that so help your sister” and “you have to set a good example for the younger kids.”

And then you sometimes have to remind your mother that truly – “you are only 9″ and I have to apologize because while 9 is big. It’s not that big. Except for when you want it to be really big…because at 9 you can still just be big when it’s convenient.

Which brings me to my question – when I do something clearly stupid and I try to say “but I’m only 43″ why don’t my kids cut me any slack.  So when you’re 43 you always have to be big? Sometimes that sucks.   I wonder if my 89 year old grandma will let me be little just for one day.

Just write.

About Tracy


My name is Tracy Morrison and I live in sunny Minnesota. I'm neither British nor a nun - I'm just a Midwesterner with a headache. This is mainly a humor and lifestyle blog that documents the lighter side of parenting. I am an ex-corporate ladder climber turned freelance writer, social media manager, and fashion expert - and ruler of my own little universe(very small). Aren't we all. I would love for you to contact me at tracy@sellabitmum.com

38 Responses to I’m This Big
  1. Kimberly
    May 7, 2012 | 11:39 pm

    Hmm, I totally going to try that on my kids. “But I’m only 30.” I wonder if that would get me out of cleaning. And cooking. And everything else that I don’t feel like doing.
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  2. Mark
    May 7, 2012 | 11:48 pm

    Astrid is a living doll!
    And your girls are going to loves these photos one day.
    Enjoy 43, there’s so much more responsibility once you hit 44. That’s when you have to really be a grown-up.
    m.
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    • admin
      May 8, 2012 | 9:02 pm

      I’ve heard that 44 is just dreadful with all the extra chores! Maybe you should come take care of me until December?

  3. Vinobaby
    May 8, 2012 | 6:21 am

    Gorgeous pics of a gorgeous girl. Nine is far to big. I think about it all the time when mine crawls into my lap, and I too think back to when he was two and fit just right. So, fast…it all goes by so fast…
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    • admin
      May 8, 2012 | 9:02 pm

      Ugh…my 9 cannot even try to crawl in anymore – she’s nearly 5 feet tall and hangs out all over the place. Crazy.

  4. By Word of Mouth Musings
    May 8, 2012 | 6:29 am

    Gorgeous – i just say … i can’t help it, I’m old! ;)
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    • admin
      May 8, 2012 | 9:03 pm

      LOL – I love you, my hot old friend. xo

  5. maybaby
    May 8, 2012 | 7:07 am

    Ohmygosh those pictures! Beyond adorable. And now I need to find a red petticoat to wear under my skirts this summer.

    • admin
      May 8, 2012 | 9:03 pm

      I’ve thought about that – what a sweet little surprise to wear…

  6. Ginny
    May 8, 2012 | 7:07 am

    Stunning pictures. She is becoming more beautiful everyday with a personality to match!

  7. Galit Breen
    May 8, 2012 | 7:16 am

    Oh so lovely!

    Just that, lovely.

    ( Also, big news! I declare you little for the day! #Powerful)

    xo
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    • admin
      May 8, 2012 | 9:04 pm

      YAY – I did nothing all day…but BOY am I in trouble now!

  8. ML@My3LittleBirds
    May 8, 2012 | 7:20 am

    Astrid and my Molly are similar in so many ways. Some days Molly wants to be a big girl and as soon as I start playing along with her- doing “big girl” things, she says “But I’m really a BABY!” I feel the same way about her…she’s definitely on the brink of losing that last bit of baby inside her. I’m happy to indulge her when she wants to be “small.”
    Also, gorgeous pictures as always!
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  9. Nicole DeZarn
    May 8, 2012 | 7:21 am

    Simply gorgeous, pics and all. And, yes, sometimes it absolutely sucks to be big.
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  10. angela
    May 8, 2012 | 8:01 am

    I say you get to be little for the day!!
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  11. Gigi
    May 8, 2012 | 8:31 am

    Why ARE we 43 year olds expected to be big all the time? I like your idea…we need a little exemption.

    • julie gardner
      May 8, 2012 | 9:26 am

      Yes. 43-year-olds unite in littleness!

      We shall gather and wear sundresses and go barefoot like Astrid.

      (But can we still have wine? Because I do enjoy that part of being big. Maybe just a mimosa…)
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      • admin
        May 8, 2012 | 9:05 pm

        I currently have wine in my sippy cup…wheeeee…

  12. christine
    May 8, 2012 | 8:58 am

    She is adorable and you are adorable and there is just too much adorableness going on over here.

    Oh, and any time you want to be little come on over. You’re welcome to curl up on my lap anytime. ;)

    xo
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    • admin
      May 8, 2012 | 9:05 pm

      I think you’re trying to hit on me – and I accept.

  13. Elaine
    May 8, 2012 | 9:22 am

    I too forget that the 8 year old is still only 8.

    These photos could not be more precious. But look at those long legs!! Ack! ;-)
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    • admin
      May 8, 2012 | 9:06 pm

      Oh the long legs. I swear Eloise’s go up to her chin.

  14. julie gardner
    May 8, 2012 | 9:27 am

    We need to get your 89-year-old grandmother and my 89-year-old grandmother together and hang out feeling ageless.

    (Playing cribbage?)

    XO
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    • admin
      May 8, 2012 | 9:06 pm

      I am truly thinking that the four of us should get together. Wouldn’t that be a hoot.(do people still say hoot?)

  15. Robin Quick
    May 8, 2012 | 10:22 am

    She is an absolute angel! What a beautiful child! Just wait until shes 12 and wants to be 17 & be allowed to do what a 17 year old can do! lol

  16. Jennifer
    May 8, 2012 | 10:35 am

    OMGosh. She is so cute. James is the same way. He wants to be so big. Why? I wish they could see the value in being little.
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  17. Kenja
    May 8, 2012 | 11:13 am

    Oh my gosh! Why didn’t I think of that (scribbling notes furiously). I will be telling my Mr. Man that he must take many naps and go to bed early if he wants to be big. Do you think 11 weeks old is too early to start this?

    What a gorgeous Astrid you have!

    • admin
      May 8, 2012 | 9:07 pm

      LOL – it’s never too early for extra sleep!

  18. Janelle-A Story of Grace
    May 8, 2012 | 12:09 pm

    She is completely adorable!

    Janelle

  19. John
    May 8, 2012 | 1:47 pm

    The thing about being “big” is that you smack your head on things. A lot. Someone asked if I had cut my head shaving . . . no, I walked past a pointy light fixture, and I’m a klutz.

    I, seriously, cannot fathom a 6-foot+ toddler . . . I mean, it’s a win if I survive the day without a concussion. If you threw my son’s insecurity on his feet with my height, it’d be bad.
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  20. Alison@Mama Wants This
    May 8, 2012 | 4:28 pm

    I’ll allow you to be little again, my dear sister-wife.

    Astrid is beautiful. She and my Monkey, yes?

    • admin
      May 8, 2012 | 9:08 pm

      Oh they are totally hooking up – when they are 43.

  21. Tina
    May 8, 2012 | 7:27 pm

    She is so darn cute Tracy!

  22. AnnJ
    May 8, 2012 | 8:51 pm

    Astrid is so adorable. She’s growing up quickly. Your trick about telling her she grows while she is sleeping reminded me that I used to tell my youngest he was magic & could pee any time he tried….so he could ‘go’ any time I needed him to :) Now that my children are teenagers it’s fun to reveal some of the ‘tricks’ I used on them when they were little. A mom needs those little helps. Thanks for sharing your life-experiences.

  23. Christine @ Love, Life, Surf
    May 8, 2012 | 10:47 pm

    She is so super cute. I think that my youngest has a complex about being small because he is small – short and squat is what I like to call him – whereas his older brother towers over him. The sweetest is what he asks me if he can do certain things when he grows bigger like open the tool box or use my crutches. He likes to remind me too that he’s a big boy, not a baby or a toddler anymore. When did they get so big?
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  24. dysfunctional mom
    May 9, 2012 | 12:57 am

    I like this. I’m right on the heels of 39. I want to try “I’m not even 40 yet, gimme a break!”
    I love love love these photos, she is simply beautiful.
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  25. Aidan Donnelley Rowley
    May 9, 2012 | 12:14 pm

    Beautiful girl. Beautiful words.

    Happy to have found my way here.

  26. Kristin @ What She Said
    May 9, 2012 | 2:59 pm

    I’m totally trying the, “If you go to bed now, you will grow SOOO big!” tonight on Lil’ Bit. Girlfriend has been bucking her bedtime something fierce this week.

    Other than that, I just wanted to say I love this post and can totally relate. I often don’t want to be big anymore.
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