I’ve been in a bit of a funk lately. Mostly from disappointing news, issues caused by my own mistakes, frustration over mediocrity, and the truth of realizing that sometimes you just really cannot please someone no matter how hard you try.
And it’s best to just walk away and maybe pray for them a little bit that they can find peace.
Because they have chosen to focus on something that is beyond my control and also decided that an apology isn’t good enough and right at this moment I just don’t have the energy to nail myself to the cross in a demonstration of good intention.
So I am moving on.
And focusing on what I can do, what I can inspire, who does love me, and the many good things that still happen in this world every single day if we are just paying better attention.
So it’s with this that I want to thank the random kindness from the man in front of the clinic this morning. Out of nowhere this good samaritan approached me, Astrid and my step-mom. I was struggling to push her wheelchair straight as Astrid clung to me in my arms out of shyness from the strange place. It was laughable really and made me realize I should really carry a smaller purse as it did not help with our clumsy maneuvering.
This gentleman touched my shoulder and said “may I help you” and of course I said “oh gosh no, we’ve got it” and he looked at me straight in the eyes and said “but I really want to help.” And I completely gave into him, thanked him profusely, and he helped me transfer my step-mom into my van(and honestly I cannot do it alone). With tears I turned to thank him for the generosity of his time and assistance and he said “nobody should have to do anything alone..and my deed will be repaid by the service you give to others.”
And he walked away just like most people we encounter in our lives. Mearly a short blip in my life radar.
But he reminded me that truly there are so many more good people out there than bad, and if we just open ourselves up to accept some help now and then, that good things will come our way.
Pouring my heart out for Shell’s place this week.