This dream woke me up last night. I wasn’t panicked as I felt I should be, but rather slightly at peace.
Eloise insisted on taking the flight before us with her friends. I watched her board the plane as I held tightly to Esther and Astrid’s hands. I kept waiting for her to turn at the door just to catch a glimpse of my eye before she boarded. She never did.
Jed stood near the window and kept repeating “she’s only nine and shouldn’t fly alone.” I kept reminding him that I took my first flight alone at nine and was just fine. Jed never turned to further discuss it but just kept repeating those words…”she’s only nine. she’s only nine.”
I never let go of Esther and Astrid’s hand as we watched in slow motion the plane doors shut. The plane back away. The plane take off.
The plane spun out of control and crashed upside down right in front of us. Right at the window.
We were now looking into the ocean. The airport window was now like a huge aquarium and we watched through the glass as the plane rested on the sandy sea floor.
We never moved.
I held tightly to hands. Jed kept repeating his words. “she’s only nine.”
Eloise was the first to emerge from the plane. She turned and put her hands back in the plane door and grabbed both her friend’s hands and pulled them out.
She smiled as she pushed off from the bottom of the sea and swam to the surface.
She walked into the airport and towards me. Dry suddenly and giggling with her friends.
I didn’t rush towards her nor even move.
I held her sister’s hands. Jed still stood at the glass.
Eloise walked past me back to the boarding gate for the next flight but paused briefly and met my eyes and smiled.