Our wedding anniversary is today, or tomorrow or maybe Friday? Jed brought me a gift yesterday just in case in was the 19th. We forgot to write it down so we always forget.every.year. Just think when we are 60 we will just say “April – just sometime in April..but maybe May..was it May?”
We didn’t set a date when we got married. We just flew to Scotland with a dress and a suit sometime in April of 2002 and got married one of those days we were there. The 20th? No? No idea. Truly.
It doesn’t really matter as my silk dress from Paris was KILLER. That is always the most important thing. Always. I will always be thankful I was not in full princess attire.
Last week Jed said to me “let’s just sell everything and travel the world on our motorcycles. Get 2 sidecars and just go. Now that is something to blog about.”
Last month Jed said to me “let’s just sell everything and get a cottage on the coast of Nicaragua and the girls can learn to windsurf. Learn Spanish.”
Last year Jed said to me “let’s just sell everything and move to Alaska. Find a small town and a simple life.”
Sometimes I get angry when I hear these things. They aren’t my life anymore. We have a house and a mortgage and property taxes and health care bills and school and the PTA.
Jed and I fell in love though for all of those things. We fell in love with the premise of no kids, traveling the world, and living light and free.
So we struggle at times with the American Dream. Neither of us saw this coming. Ever.
And while I wouldn’t change anything for the world and my kids are my life. Sometimes I wake up at 3am and also consider packing the girls into their sidecars and riding around the world for a few years and really living again.